Monday, August 27, 2007
Another great weekend
It seems that my life today is on a path of happiness. I know that my own mind can cause things to go awry if I'm not working the program but for the moment all seems okay. I had a brief trip out of town, followed by some time back home just relaxing.
I took my laptop with me while I was away but never even opened it. For some reason, I just felt like enjoying some down time without emails or any other reminders of things that I needed to get done. I just wanted to take the time to relax, get one commitment that I had to do completed, and then just wander around, eat at a nice restaurant, and generally be lazy.
I had some work that I could have done but I just didn't want to do anything that would interfere with the freedom and happiness that I felt. It is uncharacteristic of me to think this way. I've always been the one who had to get going, work on things, felt responsible, and felt guilty for not doing. I seem to have lost my guilt and my urge to be busy. I want to do those things that feel good and that simply allow me to exist in a peaceful state. Some days I think that I may be shirking too much responsibility and feeling too good. Maybe it's the pink cloud or the fourth dimension or some altered state of mind but whatever it is, I know that my way of thinking is very different than it was before I came into the program. For that, I'm grateful.