Thursday, August 9, 2007

My cousin

I visited my cousin this evening. He has deteriorated a lot since the last time I saw him. He cannot walk, he has no use of his right side and he only verbalizes a couple of things over and over. One of the things that he says over and over is "I'm crazy" and the other thing that he says is "Help me God". I sat with him and talked to him. He asked me how my mother is and I said that she is very peaceful. She has been dead for two years. He put his hand out to me and I shook it and held it. I cut his fingernails. I felt very peaceful and so thankful for the day that I had and the time that I spent with him. I know that it won't be long for him. I could just sense that. But one never knows the day or the hour.

His wife told me that this is the darkest hour before the miracle. She said that the dead neurosurgeons are working hard on his brain and that all will be well soon. I smiled and told her that I knew that all would be well. Whatever happens, he will finally be cured and at peace. It will be time for his miracle to occur shortly. I just wish that he had the benefit of this great program because I believe that it makes one more accepting of whatever is tossed our way. I know that it has helped me in so many ways.

10 comments:

  1. I think what your cousin says is very wise. He understands his condition better than we realize. I know how healing a peaceful person is to be around, so I'm sure you helped in ways that are never very easy to see. I beleive we REALLY understand suffering, having been thru our own personal hells. and I believe others that are suffering can really 'see' that in us. its the language of the heart. they just instinctively know we have 'been there'. I think its a WONDERFUL opportunity for service. i think it was a really good thing to go see him. it was the right thing to do.

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  2. {{Thank you for sharing Syd}}

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  3. I'm so sorry, Syd. Bless you & your cousin.

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  4. I will pray for you and your family.. I will pray for the miracle..

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  5. In reading this post, I wish his wife had your perspective...how wonderful that would be for him. I have a feeling her world is going to fall apart...soon.

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  6. It is a huge leap to get on the other side of loss...perhaps your peaceful acceptance will remain a picture she can call in in her mind when she needs strength. I do believe in miracles. I just don't know that we have the right to dictate what they "look like". I am sure you are correct...everything will be fine soon.

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  7. I hope his wife can find peace in her mind and soul...after all is said and done.
    You must feel a lot better after having gone to see your cousin...you did the right thing. Somewhere in his mind I'M sure he appreciates your visit. Life really sucks sometimes.

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  8. I am so glad that you were their with your cousin Syd, I will be praying for him to be at peace soon sending you good thoughts and peace (((HUGS)))

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  9. What a wonderful thing it is for you to go sit with your cousin. God Bless You Syd.

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  10. I love that you sat and did his nails and listened and noticed him and how he was. You are a lovely man Syd

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