Monday, July 21, 2008
I think that my level of patience has increased as I've gotten older. My parents used to tell me that I was impatient about everything when I was a kid. I stayed in that mode for many years. I wanted what I wanted when I wanted it. Looking back, it seemed like an incredibly selfish attitude.
I've found that waiting for something or someone has it's own rewards. I may think that I want something but now I ask myself whether I need it. If I don't need it, then I can wait for it. And maybe in the future, I might actually get it. It is rare that we have all the planets, stars, and forces in alignment in this life. I have learned with the program and with living life in general that those things that I want to do, have, be or accomplish won't happen immediately. In fact, they may never happen. So, I accept the limitations that I have and tend to work within the sphere that is reality.
For instance, I think some days that I may want a bigger boat. And then I think that having a bigger boat might bring bigger problems, more upkeep, etc. So I don't feel an urge to rush out and act on my thoughts but have learned to appreciate the boat that I currently have. I am grateful just to have Compass Rose and accept that there might be a time in the future when I'll seriously consider a bigger boat, but it doesn't have to be today.
The same thing is true about other aspects of living. I can wish and want until I'm lost in that, or I can learn how to wait. I like the Rolling Stone lyrics, "You can't always get what you want but if you try sometime you find you get what you need. "