Wednesday, October 15, 2008
These are troubling days in the world financial markets. It's like riding a roller coaster. The interesting thing is that I don't have much fear about financial security. It's not that I have a lot of money. But I do have enough money to live on, and I have "things". I'm comfortable, made some sound investments that seemed good a few years ago, have a nice home and car, and a secure job. So I don't have a lot of anxiety about the financial market.
But there are lots of people who are living on the edge. And I know some of them from Al-Anon meetings. They have lost their homes and savings because of alcoholism. And yet last night I heard some one express that even though they had lost so much, they were still not fearful about the economy. They had learned to live a simpler life and one that wasn't dependent upon having so many "things".
I always thought that if I had to go back to living like a graduate student I could it do again. I could downsize the house, have one car, not eat out, sell the boat, and do a number of things that would prevent us from being bankrupt. Before Al-Anon, I wanted more things. But I've come to realize that just having those things that money can't buy is what's important: peace, serenity, love. And I'm getting all of this through the program--for free.
It seems that the longer I am in the program, the fear that used to keep me awake with anxiety in the middle of the night has been replaced by faith and gratitude. There are no guarantees about the future when it comes to the world's economy. But I know that I'll be okay. It's more than a hunch.