He still goes to 4-5 meetings a week. He believes in the singleness of purpose for AA. I've had lots of discussions with him about how he thinks the fellowship is being diluted from what the original 100 started.
I'm glad that he has achieved 18 years of sobriety. I also know that he remains ever vigilant about his alcoholism.
I've read that even for those with long-time sobriety, there are moments when things don't seem to be working. And that happens in Al-Anon as well. Maybe the cycle is something like this:
a) Everything is going just fine and life could not be better.
b) Feelings occur that I'm "just not happy", not unhappy but something is missing.
c) My meetings don't go well. I'm not hearing what I need to hear, or the meetings aren't being done "right"
d) My prayer and meditations don't seem real.
e) Nothing I am reading strikes a chord with me.
f) My self-centeredness is a little too centered or my focus has shifted away from taking care of myself.
Maybe this is when I need to inventory what I'm doing, thinking and feeling. Or maybe I'm not doing, thinking or feeling what I need to. The solution comes from finding a power greater than myself to which I can turn.
I like the following passage:
"Learn daily the lesson of trust and calm in the midst of the storms of life. Whatever sorrow or difficulty the day may bring, God's command to you is the same. Be grateful, humble, calm, and loving to all people. Leave each soul the better for having met you or heard you. For all kinds of people, this should be your attitude: a loving desire to help and an infectious spirit of calmness and trust in God. You have the answer to loneliness and fear, which is calm faith in the goodness and purpose in the universe." from The Little Black Book
Happy 18 th. anniversary, D. --one day at a time.