Thursday, October 22, 2009
Sleep in peace
"Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones; and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace. God is awake." Victor Hugo
It's a nice day outside with blue skies and wisps of cirrus clouds. The water has some ripples from an easterly wind. It's one of those days of neutrality of mind and spirit for me. I'm not feeling sad or sorrowful. Nor am I jumping for joy. I feel placid.
Not so many years ago, I was caught up in all the drama of living with alcoholism. I couldn't see any reason to keep going, to stay married, to do much of anything. Yet, I forced myself to do a lot. I still went to work, had hobbies, did work around the house. But it was as if I were sleep walking through life.
Now most days are easy like today. There isn't anything much on my mind. I've learned patience and acceptance. I've learned to have hope and live with faith.
I've had the great sorrows in life and will no doubt have more. But it feels today as if I can accomplish what I need to and at the end of the day, lay down and sleep peacefully.
That is evidence of God's grace so freely given to me. What a lucky guy I am.