First, Happy New Year to all. Whether you stayed up to ring in the new year or went to sleep at 10:30, I hope you had a good evening.
For the past two days I have been listening to a fifth step by a sponsee. The first day of his story left me feeling drained. I could feel the shadow person sitting near with all the dismal retrospective thinking coming out. I can identify with his story. Although the actions aren't the same, the thinking behind them was mine.
Yesterday, after a prayer to just let me be God's ears, I felt lighter as I listened. I didn't feel heavy in my heart. I believe that there is still unresolved stuff that was brought out as I listened. But I had a lot of compassion for him and for myself which made the dark less ominous.
I think that this fifth step experience reminded me once again that God is there no matter how dark the situation may seem or how troubling the story may be.