Friday, November 26, 2010
We aren't the same people as we were back then. I believe that we have learned from each other over the years. There is more respect and understanding for each other, more acceptance of who we are in the marriage, and more confidence that our lives are intertwined for a reason.
To say that being in recovery has made a big difference in the last four and a half years is an understatement. I wanted fervently for C. to get help for many years. I knew that she had a problem with alcohol. What I didn't realize was that I had a problem too. Alcoholism had made me into an angry, ungrateful, demanding, unhappy person. I not only didn't love my wife, I didn't love myself either. Nor does it seem that I loved anyone else.
Recovery was the fork in the road for us. Thankfully, we took the road that has lead us to where we are today. We have forgiven the past. We understand that today is what we have. We ask to do God's will. And understand that regardless of the mistakes made, we still love each other.
We don't know how long our journey will be, but we know we'll be together to the end and this makes the bad times more bearable, and the good times even better.