Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to others, and to practice these principles in all our affairs. We shared what we thought it meant to have a spiritual awakening. If I have awakened, what does that mean in my life? How do I know?
For me, there was not really any one moment of clarity that I can single out. There wasn't a lightening bolt of enlightenment. Rather, it seems that day by day I have changed. I know what I was before and can feel inside how I am now. There is a difference.
Some of what has happened to me, I attribute to knowing that I am not alone. I now have friends who sincerely care about me. I can pick up the phone and call people who will listen with acceptance. Now that I have people to talk to, who understand the effects of alcoholism and what it takes to recover, I am not stuck in my own head to work things out. I am not alone with the killer of obsessive thinking that drove me to over analyze everything. Part of my spiritual awakening is that I have learned to quiet my mind. Meditation and realizing that I don't have to figure everyone else out has changed me.
I have steadily become more aware of what I need to live a life without having to be doing something just for the sake of doing it. My spiritual awakening has helped me to narrow the many choices down to what I really think matters. I don't need to pretend that I enjoy doing something. I actually can make a choice and not feel guilty about saying NO. What a relief to not play the game anymore of having to pretend to be somebody. I am somebody now without the pretending.
Another part of my spiritual awakening is the realization that I am not in charge of anyone else's life. I don't have the power to make another person recover, make them do what I want, be what I want, or love me the way that I want. My awakening has been to mind my own business and be happy with who I am.
My awakening is an evolving process. Not every day or situation is one that I am fully awake to. I liken the feeling of spiritual awakening to the tide. It rolls in and carries me in a wave of good feelings. And then it also may depart, leaving me behind, feeling alone and scared. But I know that the good tide of feelings will return. And with those moments when I am awash in the wonderment of life, I know that my spirit is awakening, little by little, one day at a time.
The following is something that I found online about how to know that you have had a spiritual awakening. I don't know who wrote it, but I believe that I get these. They are becoming a part of my life.
1--An increased tendency to let things happen , rather than make them happen.
2--Frequent attacks of smiling.
3--Feelings of being connected with others and nature.
4--Frequent overwhelming episodes of appreciation.
5--A tendency to think and act spontaneously rather than from fears based on past experience.
6--An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment.
7-- A loss of the ability to worry.
8-- The loss of interest in conflict.
9--A loss of interest in interpreting the actions of others
10-- A loss of interest in judging others.
11--A loss of interesting in judging self.
12--Gaining the ability to love without expecting anything in return.
And that is what I am experiencing now more and more. God, it feels so good.