Monday, April 11, 2011
Hope from a newcomer
Every time there is a person who comes to a meeting in pain from what alcoholism has done, I feel so much compassion. But I am also filled with a great deal of hope. My compassion comes from having been confused and angry, filled with despair when I went to my first meeting. My hope comes from seeing where I am now and how far I have come in taking care of myself and not fixating on the alcoholic.
I know that if the newcomer can keep coming to meetings, there will be a chance that the pain will cease and there can be happiness in its place. I have felt so low that I seriously thought at one time about suicide. And yet, now I see that was totally my disease telling me that I was no good, unworthy of love, and a complete failure as a human being. It was through the steps of this program that I learned that I wasn't as bad as I thought nor as good as others thought I was.
Newcomers who keep coming back, get a sponsor and work the steps can feel hope again. The tears that seem as if they will never go away will be replaced with laughter. I know because I have seen it happen with others and with myself. So when a newcomer walks through the door of a meeting, I am grateful.
I not only am reminded of how I have been helped but am also given an opportunity to extend my hand to offer help to another. That is what keeps me filled with hope. I have seen what the 12 steps have done for me and how the 12 traditions have helped me deal with others. Newcomers do bring hope.