Friday, December 9, 2011
That is sometimes what it used to feel like being me a few years ago. I would have many things going on. Rushing about trying to leave no stone unturned in an effort to get so much done. It seemed especially true during the holidays. More things to do, hoping to find a brilliant spot in a day of doing and existing.
This year, I'm not rushing about. I am going to meetings, going to a few fun events with my wife, but taking care of myself by not overdoing. We have hosted a recovery luncheon on Christmas day for the last two years. This year, we are going to forego that. We are tired, don't want to cook for 30 people, and would rather just do something together on Christmas day. We will go to the parents' house, visit some friends later, and spend the day quietly.
This Christmas, I don't feel the need to fill up the house with people. My sponsor says that I am taking care of myself by going with my true feelings. The true feelings are that a quiet simple time seems like gracious plenty.