I am out on the boat today. It is a beautiful day. I am grateful to be here--to walk on the beach, swim, enjoy the sunrise and ocean breeze.
I talked to J. about her mother. She is wondering what she could have done to prevent the suicide. I am sorry that she is feeling so responsible for something that was beyond her control. I had a lot of "what if" thoughts after my father died suddenly. A suicide is different though. The long term effects of such a devastating tragedy are hard to know.
I appreciate your comments and thoughts. I have not lived through such a tragedy. My frame of reference is limited. We will do what we can to help her out.
And even I wonder whether a person who is in so much pain would not benefit from a day like today on the water. Nature is healing. I discovered a few years ago that there are places to go that can help heal whatever wounds have occurred. My spirit is content, my being peaceful.