Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Snakes, credit cards and anxieties
And then the copperhead showed up while the landscapers were working. We had a couple of these venomous snakes in one of the paddocks last week. I generally capture them and put them in a bucket to take to the wooded area across the road from the house. What to do with two of them made more aggressive due to mating? Well, those two were dispatched, while the one today was captured and left to slither away into the woods across the road. The landscapers were warned about the snaked earlier in the day and laughed. Now, they are bit more cautious--this isn't suburbia but the country with an assortment of critters, some of which are dangerous.
But here's what's really on my mind. I have been concerned lately about my wife's anxiety that comes and goes. Most days are good, but then there are times when she is more anxious. She clenches her jaw and has begun to grind her teeth. Sometimes words don't come as easily to her in a sentence. I am hoping these are related to depression/anxiety and not any kind of progressive aphasia. Because of her mother's dementia, I have concerns when she can't remember a word or seems forgetful and distracted when talking to me. Because this only happens occasionally, I haven't worried. This morning, I think it happened because she was anxious about the credit card situation, the landscapers being here, and the snake hubbub. I am trying to figure out a way to gently ask her about it and perhaps ask her to discuss it with her physician who she will see on Thursday. It is a delicate subject.
I know that when it comes to the love of my life, I want her to be safe and free of worry. I naturally want to protect her. Knowing that I may not be able to is indeed difficult. So I will wait for the right moment to broach the subject and see what she says. There's not much more that I can do. I am leaving a lot of this up to a power greater than me.