We had to euthanize our sweet greyhound girl this week. I knew it was coming because she had kidney and heart disease. We bought her a lot of time with trips to the veterinary hospital for fluids and medicines. But eventually, the kidney failure was too much for her. We are both sad that she is gone but know that it was time.
I have been having a lot of flashbacks to childhood. These are not dreams but happen when I am not highly focused on something. All of a sudden, there will be a vision of me standing in front of a bookcase in the old elementary school library, or me running down the dirt path leading to my cousin's house, or sitting on the stairs at my parents house looking out into the large front yard.
So many of these vivid flashbacks are occurring that I am wondering what it is about. I have read that these can be caused by unresolved anxiety, or some form of PTSD. But these aren't unpleasant memories at all--just very vivid and in great detail. I certainly would choose to be in the present and not have all of these thoughts about the past coming up and rushing through my head. I asked my wife about it, and she said that she has dreams but hasn't experienced the vivid flashbacks that I am having while awake.
Sometimes I do wonder if I may not have inherited some of my family's tendency towards depression. I hope not because it was a very hard road for both my mother and her father. And it isn't any journey that I want to go on.
So I am going to stay in the moment by going on the boat this week. The weather is going to be cool. It seems to reset my mind to go on the boat. Right now, I am needing a reset for sure.
Sharing some photos of my greyhound girl when she was healthy and could run like the wind. I miss her a lot.