Saturday, March 24, 2007
Today I'm feeling calm and peace seep over me. I've got that lazy Saturday feeling when the weekend stretches out before me. Although it's only two days, I can manage to relish the thought of getting to bed early, reading a book, and doing some things that I would like to get done but don't necessarily have to do. Tomorrow I have to do some work in the morning and will get to a meeting in the evening. Other than that there isn't anything on my agenda and nothing that is taxing my brain or soul.
My SO and I went out to dinner last night which turned out to be a very nice evening. We had a corner table that was quiet and were able to talk and laugh. There was no sadness in either of us. It felt good to be comfortable with each other and enjoy the excellent meal and each other's company. I think that we needed to have some time away from the theme of alcohol and recovery. During the week, our schedule is dominated by work and meetings. There isn't enough time to just chill out. Sometimes I feel that recovery absorbs everything in my life. I guess that it has to but it surely was nice to experience an evening without talking about it or having it be right there in the forefront of every thought.
I'm looking outside the windows at the surrounding woods and seeing a lot of new growth as evidenced by the soft green leaves. Like the sprigs on the trees, I'm seeing new growth in myself and it feels every bit as fresh and new as this beautiful spring day.