Friday, June 8, 2007
I'm hoping to be able to see the shuttle launch tonight. There is currently a lot of cloud cover and we've had a downpour of rain. A lot of us are looking forward to seeing the rocket flare just because we are so close to the launching area.
There was a lot of activity last night trying to get the yellow submarine back on board the ship. Seas weren't too bad but the sucker had a mind of it's own and was being difficult to get back in the cradle. Essentially, it had to be craned back on board (bottom photo) but a diver had to go in the water to untangle the lines from it. The rescue boat was launched to pick up the diver (top photo). I've attached a few photos from the evening. When everyone is running around like crazy in a panic mariners call this a "cluster f*ck".
It's an applicable term because there are a lot of egos running around trying to work as a team yet where egos are involved that's hard to do. Everyone thinks that they are an expert and have the answer, which makes it difficult to really effect a solution. Ego is one of those things that is most detrimental to the work that I do and to the program that I work. I usually stand back and watch the process unfold. It keeps me in the background which is where I'm probably most comfortable. Sometimes I think that I need to push myself forward more. It's something that I need to work on, yet find hard to do. My fear of failure and rejection no doubt contributes to that feeling of being left behind. I do it to myself. One day at a time.