Thursday, June 7, 2007
I was talking to a good friend on the ship. He thinks that it's time that he decides what he wants to do with his life. At 44 years old, he works as an AB on the ship. He's worked on tugboats for several years before being on here. Before that there were "lost" years though that took him in a downward spiral from which he thankfully escaped from over 16 years ago. When I listen to what he says, I think that he has these dreams that may or may not be fulfilled. He really wants to be a tugboat captain which is attainable if you can pass all the tests. I know that he has the intelligence, but he has a hard time with testing. He said that a career would make him successful in terms of American expectations. I really hope that his dreams are fulfilled and for the right reasons.
Too many of us have dreams that are a result of what others want and expect us to do. I have spent the greater part of my life trying to please others, achieving because that was a way to fill the emptiness. Now, I just am pleasing my self. Maybe the difference is that I have achieved and after all is said and done, I wasn't any happier. Now, I'm happy because I don't have to prove anything. I've done what I need to do and can look forward to doing what I want to do. That's a neat position to be in.