I had to inventory myself after the conversation because my ego felt bruised. I knew what was happening in my head and realized after giving it some thought that this wasn't about me. I also realized that sometimes people simply don't mesh, even if I was clueless to the not meshing part.
I did point out to him that it's important to find someone with whom he feels comfortable because the sponsor-sponsee relationship is one of give and take, listen and learn, and above all trust.
Later in the evening there were panicked calls from another sponsee who is breaking up with a girlfriend. I listened and shared what I could identify with. The final call came at 1:15 in the morning which I didn't answer, knowing that my boundary was no calls after 11 PM.
These individuals have been my first sponsees. I'm learning that sponsorship makes me aware of how important it is for me to practice acceptance and detachment as well as other principles of the program.
I'm okay with it all today. I realize from having the luck to have B. as my sponsor that none of us will ever be perfect. He has shown me that we are only human and inspired by our HP to be supportive, compassionate, and a listener with experience to share.
Happy Friday to each of you.