Saturday, September 27, 2008
I didn't go out in the boat today but decided to do some maintenance work. After a slow start this morning due to staying up way too late to watch the debate and commentary afterward, I made it down to the boat in the early afternoon.
I used a rubbing compound on the deck that promptly turned brown from the sun. No matter what I tried the deck was a bad burnt sienna color. No chemical compound I had would take it off. So I went to the hardware store and got some Scotch Brite pads and used elbow grease to get rid of the rubbing compound. Read the directions, Syd! Don't apply rubbing compound in hot sun.
While I was elbow greasing the deck, I thought about the conversation I had this morning with my wife. She is leaving tomorrow for a trip out of town. I hate to see her go. But it's her turn to go away for a bit and enjoy some cooler weather in Nantucket. I'm staying behind with the dogs and cats.
We talked about how she needs a break from being around the house. She has enjoyed retirement, but I know that somedays she gets bored. We talked about how we used to have people over but now that she is sober, there haven't been any parties here. We have some friends from our respective fellowships over for dinner once in a while. She asked why we tried to make everything so nice if it was just us. I found this question to be profoundly sad. And the only answer I had was that it's for our enjoyment and not to display for anyone else. She said, "Oh, I understand now." I love her dearly and hope that she knows that it's not the parties that matter but that the two of us enjoy what our surroundings are.
I'm going to miss her. But I know that she'll be back and that's what matters.