Tuesday, October 13, 2009
I had a meeting with an old colleague this morning. During the course of our conversation, I told him how a proposal that a group of us had worked on was not submitted to the granting agency on Friday. Another scientist who is the principal on the project was supposed to submit it. Unfortunately, he didn't remember until Sunday night which was too late.
My old colleague looked at me in a bit of shock. He said to me, "Something's different about you. You seem so laid back and at ease. You've never suffered fools gladly. Is there anything wrong?" I had to laugh.
The old me would have been filled with resentment and judgment over the proposal not being submitted. The old me would have castigated myself over leaving it in the hands of someone else. Instead, I chose not to let it ruin my Monday. I went to my home group meeting and did a program on Step 10. Amazing how God arranges things so that I hear just what I needed to hear when I need to hear it.
The transformation that I feel daily fills me with gratitude. I'm glad that I don't have to react out of anger or judgment. I can feel myself flying even on days when I think that I can only crawl.
There is nothing in a caterpillar that tells you it's going to be a butterfly. ~Richard Buckminster Fuller