I learned this morning that a friend of my wife killed himself over the weekend. He and C. were in a couple of groups together. In fact, he once commented to C. that he admired how she "just quit and white knuckled" without having to go to rehab or detox.
I didn't know him well but knew his wife who attended some meetings that I attended. It is all very sad to me. My sponsor said that sometimes people think that there are no more options. I don't have any answers as to "Why?". I can only imagine that dying must be more attractive than living at that moment.
C and I will go to the funeral tomorrow. I still pray for the sick and suffering. There just seems to be a lot of that at the moment. I feel so much hope. It is as if in the midst of so much anguish I see life as still precious and beautiful. I wish that C's friend had felt that instead of darkness.
There but for the grace of God....