I started out the morning with a meeting with a sponsee. We met at a nearby coffee shop and spent about an hour and a half discussing Step Three. He has a lot of spirituality, and I feel that I am learning from him (having been in AA for 24 years), just as he is getting something from me as it pertains to Al-Anon.
I find it interesting that over half the sponsees that I have had have been "double winners". As I have written about here often, there is an attraction that I have for alcoholics and apparently they are attracted to me. It is okay as I keep the programs separate. I know that I cannot help with AA work but am qualified to help with Al-Anon which has a lot to do with digging deeply within to better understand feelings, motives, and how to relate to a Higher Power.
I really needed a meeting today. I have been feeling meeting deprived of late. I had planned to go to the study meeting tonight and then to the regular discussion meeting. But a good friend's mother had surgery today, so I decided to meet him at the hospital late this afternoon to wait while his mother came out of surgery. I am glad that I did. The family was glad to have someone there to wait with them. I may not have made the meeting, but I feel that I was right where I needed to be.
C. and I are going fishing in the morning. The speckled trout are biting so we are going to try to catch a few of them. If tomorrow is as gorgeous as today, we will be in for a treat. Once again, I may not be at a meeting, but believe that I am improving my conscious contact with God just by being among the marshes, the critters, and on the water with C. I am going to sleep tonight with a clear mind and a warm feeling that all is well in my world.
I've actually come to feel like being a "double winner" is a point of pride. I guess some of us are sicker than others! Hope you catch some of those speckled trout, Syd.
ReplyDeleteSounds like you are taking care of yourself. Like to hear we can have good times in Alanon....
ReplyDeletesmiles. have fun fishing this morning...and glad all is well...
ReplyDeleteWhatever path takes you to that place of silent contentment is the right path. Hope you get yourself some dinner this morning Syd.
ReplyDeleteEven if the trout don't bite, I'll bet it's a good day. And they will probably bite.
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear all is well.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad the my Creator isn't confined by structures or time. I imagine you and C. will gather more than fish today.. Safe fishing.
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I think it is wonderful that you can separate the Al-anon program from the AA one. You are so right ...there are many AA's who go to Alanon too and they need your wise message (or I should say the Al-anon message, not yours, although I think you articulate it beautifully. I often pass your posts on to a girl that I sponsor and it helps her a lot.)
ReplyDeleteHave fun fishing, that photo is serenity captured on film! :)
ReplyDeleteChoosing to do what satisfies and contents us, is a powerful statement about how far we have come in our recovery.
ReplyDeleteWhen life feels good, I know I have worked my program to arrive at that place, and I'm grateful.
Sitting with a friend in a hospital waiting room trumps sitting in a meeting any day.
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