Thursday, December 30, 2010

Much better today

I feel much better today after getting a good night's sleep. I am a sentimental fool much of the time. Getting attached to people and things, and feeling too much, are some of the characteristics of those of us who are in Al-Anon.

In spite of the pain that such attachments may cause, I am grateful to have those feelings. I have known hard people who feel very little. I am not a hard person, although there are those who have thought they knew me as such. I would much rather be the one who hasn't walled off his heart. My father once told me that feeling too much was unhealthy. He might have been right.

I am getting ready to go out on the new boat for a few days. This is her shake down cruise. We will be going to our old island spot and hopefully have a fire on the beach. It's time for me to reconnect my spirit with that island where we have had so many good times.

Thank you for all your caring comments. You are a special group of people. I may not get by your blogs every day, but I do wonder how you are doing. I also miss those who have moved on to other endeavors. You see I formed attachments to the bloggers too. Wishing those of you still here and those who aren't all the best.


  1. sometimes remaining an open and caring person it the real hard part. especially when some wants to to be the low man on the totla pol all the time.

  2. What a wonderful way to spend New Years! Y'all have a wonderful, romantic, lovely time. With big, open, feeling hearts.

  3. Glad you are feeling better today!
    A trip to the island seems like a wonderful idea! How fortunate you are to have such a special place.

    I feel like you hit the nail on the head for me about attachment. I can so relate to feeling too much. It can be liability at times, but also brings an intensity to life.

    Enjoy your trip.

  4. "Feeling" is good - whether sad or happy. It reminds us that we are alive. Tomorrow is another day, and very soon another year.

    Love and hugs...

  5. Being on an island with a fire sounds awesome, if only I had such a place but I do in my heart so that's okay. I hope you connect with your spirit on your island and have some lovely times like those from the past. Thinking of you!

  6. i hope that your time at the island is one of renewal and refreshment syd...happy new years...

  7. I'm also very softhearted Syd and form attachments very easily, then feel hurt when others move away or break the connection. Online friendship is such a precarious and fragile bond and yet it is part of the reason why I go on blogging.

    I hope you have a great day and a good New Year's Eve.

  8. today i wish i could feel less... but like with you, these feelings too will pass. happy new year, syd, and thank you for your steadfast friendship.

  9. May she prove as sea worthy and sleek as your expectations of her and may the beach sand be soft and dry where you and C park your behinds to warm the fire.

  10. glad u r feeing better syd :)
    have a good evening doing whatever u feel like doing..

    this talk is lovely

    What Is Love? by Ajahn Brahmavamso

    I downloaded over 450 talks by him :) and am working through them..

  11. For one with what the docs call "bipolar disorder," sleep is life. Glad you got some.

    Feeling is also good, yet I have the biological addition of wildly expanded emotions, so I have to be careful on the top end.

    Best of luck on your shakedown cruise; may it be perfect. Or close enough to it for fun.

  12. Sounds like a wonderful way to bring in the new year.

    I'm almost jealous. :)

    Seriously...Happy New Year, may the moon and stars be your guides and the Winds of Fortune always at your back as you sail the sea of happy destiny

  13. Sentimental you may be, but not a fool, Syd. I read your blog with my morning coffee, and always appreciate your thoughtful working of your program.
    Have a great time on the boat!

  14. Wishing you a Happy New Year, Syd.

  15. Glad to hear you feeling back in good spirits. I feel lucky to have a wide range of feelings. In the past when some feelings arose I would shut down. Eventually this stuffing caused me to loose sight of what I was feeling....
    With the help of Alanon I have gently coaxed open my emotions again one step at a time.

  16. Wishing you and C a happy and peaceful New Year. I hope you both enjoy the trip to your special island, what a fantastic start to the new year.

    I would just like to say how much I enjoy reading your blog. It is so full of wisdom and character and has been a tremendous support to my journey with the AlAnon programme. Thank you.

  17. Enjoy the shake down cruise. It has been a pleasure reading your blog this past year. May 2011 bring more joy on the new boat, much peace and oodles of love.

  18. I hid my emotions for some many years and when I got into recovery I learned to trust myself and others. Not everyone but the people in the program first and then on from there. I still think I can appear hard but I do my best and that is all I can do for today. Your life seems peaceful. Happy New Year.

  19. I hope you are enjoying your time on the island. May 2011 bring you continued growth and peace.

  20. I attach to people easily, too, Syd.

    Love you.


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