Well, the chili is cooking and the corn bread is done. I am making two pots of chili from two different recipes. And I'm doing the same with the cornbread. I had a lot of fun this morning cooking and dicing and slicing. C. came in to check on me and make a few suggestions. No beans are going into the contest chili, but the vegetarian one has beans in it. Now I am going to clean up the mess that I've made. I am actually pretty clean when I cook (I'm sure that you are thinking--good Syd, you washed your hands and didn't get any hair in the chili). Not much was spilled on the floor, and the ramekins saved the day. I used about ten ramekins for all the ingredients, and they were organized in order. Just like a chemistry class!
I did a sponsee call in the midst of the cornbread making. I told him that I would put him on speaker as I finished up what I was doing, if that was okay. He is doing a fourth step via the long and detailed Blueprint for Progress. It took me about four months to get through the fourth step, and I wasn't dragging my feet. It is just a long process in Al-Anon. Sometimes I would just like to go right to the AA inventory and not do the Blueprint. But a part of me, that part that says "go by the book" (the chemistry class attitude), says to do it the way that I was guided through the steps by my sponsor. You see, I can be impatient at times. It is one of my defects. I have to remind myself that the more that is revealed in a fourth step, the better things will go when we get to the rest of the steps. Don't rush the process, I tell myself.
Yesterday a man called who wants me to temporarily sponsor him while his real sponsor is getting over some stuff that has sidelined him for over a month and a half. I said that I would be glad to help this man. When I first met him in a meeting, he was angry, loud and dominant. I remember thinking that he was not a person I wanted to get close to. After a year in meetings, he has changed remarkably. He still likes to talk a lot, but the anger is gone. He has humility now and seems filled with a lot of happiness. I don't think that it is coincidence that he chose me to be a temporary sponsor. He said that I exuded openness and a non-judging attitude. Wow--if only he knew what I had originally thought of him when he first came in. I will share that in an amends at the appropriate time. For right now, I am grateful to be of service in the interim while his sponsor is getting back on track.