Wednesday, February 9, 2011

The light of day

It has been a good day here.  I took several of the dogs to the beach and then to dog park where they played and ran around, enjoying the many mud puddles at the park and the surf at the beach.  They are always so tired when we finish these excursions--all are currently laid out snoring on their beds. 

Later this afternoon,  about ten people from my wife's AA home group came over for dinner. She invited them over two weeks ago.  There was plenty of food and every one seemed to enjoy the fellowship.  She made a wonderful bouillabaisse, french bread, and a delicious beef and noodle stroganoff with noodles.  Tonight after the meeting she was really tired but glad to have had her group over. 

We are both concerned over a medical problem that C. has had recently.  She has gone in for an exam and further tests are being ordered, along with a CT scan.  We won't know the results until those are done.  We are keeping a positive attitude.  I am doing my best to live in the day and not projecting about something that has not been diagnosed.  So far I am doing well with not projecting, knowing that we will both face whatever the results are.  C. is also doing well, but it tugs at my heart to see her troubled.  I want to protect her from harm but know that is not possible.  All I can do is to be kind and loving to her, help her, and be there for her no matter what. 

Just wanted to let you know because you are part of my recovery community.  And this is something that has been on my mind over the past week.  It was time for me to give it up here.  And by letting it see the light of day, it makes my feelings much brighter.


  1. My prayers are going out to you and C. It is nice that you want to protect her, but that is the HP's job. All will be well, as it should be. Take care, Syd.

  2. Sending positive thoughts to C and for you too. Thanks for sharing, Syd, online friendship is very real amondst those of us in recovery.

  3. All the very best to you and C. Take good care Syd.

  4. when we share concerns that gives other people the ability to send positive thoughts and feelings out there. I'm glad you shared.

  5. Syd,
    I will keep a good thought for C.
    I'm glad you let us know, so we can help you carry the load a little.

    I love you.


  6. You are so right to keep a clear mind and not fall into a bad place of worrying. Learning how to deal with fear and keep the unknown in perspective is so much part of recovery. Hugs to you and C while you await tests and knowledge so you can make good decisions.

  7. Al-Anon has taught me not to invite worry into my life - it doesn't change anything, and it only makes me desperately unhappy.
    I'll be thinking positively for you both.

  8. yeah technobabe makes a good point

    i learned not to worry, e.g. when i'm late i REFUSE to keep checking the time. if i'm riding public transport already, how is my knowing i'm x minutes late possibly going to change anything

    see i don't need heroin

    i wish i knew that years ago, but i was depressed then and being as heroin is a mood-blanketer i always felt ultra-vile without it. methadone does nothing to salve my moods, which is why i feel so fantastic now.

    i'm off the antipsychotics and feel fantastic! they had horrible side-effects so the dr is going to have to change them when i see him in a couple of weeks

  9. Shared pain is 'half-pain' while shared joy is 'double-joy.'

    Thank you for sharing your family news here - - - I, too, find great comfort and encouragement from the 'fellowship' family. In fact, they know more about me than my birth family does.

    It is always an honor to hear someone open their soul within the safe abode of the fellowship, blogs, or meeting rooms.

    With hugs to you, and special prayers for a positive outcome,

    Anonymous #1

  10. Thank you for sharing. I will keep you both in my prayers.

  11. keep walking
    though there is no place to get to
    don't try to see through the distance
    that's not for human beings
    move within
    but don't move the way that fear makes you move ~ Rumi

    Saw this quote today on facebook posted by someone in recovery and I hope it helps. I have been following your blog for some time and it has helped me.

  12. Thinking of you Syd and praying for C.

    Your sharing again adds wisdom in dealing with life as it happens.

    May you be encouraged by the care and support you receive from this community.

    Take care,

  13. Oh Syd, I will be praying for both you and C. Thank you for sharing with us. You are so loved here in our blogger family.


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