I am sitting in the cockpit now with two snoring dogs nearby. Later, I am going to row to shore and take the dogs for a walk on the beach. A lot of erosion has occurred since my last visit. But it's still peaceful and comforting to know that there is a place nearby to enjoy the quiet of a deserted island. The waves are lapping against the hull and the ocean waves are crashing on the far side of the island.
I have lectures to prepare for Monday evening over the next nine weeks. I do enjoy teaching and know that it's good to refresh on information that I haven't studied in some time. I still feel as if there are so many others more qualified than me to teach the course. But I keep telling myself that I was the one asked to teach it and know that I can prepare as well as anyone can. It's my old insecurity that I need to be the "expert" when in fact I remain still a student in my mind. Ah well....i have felt like an imposter for a long time, even at the pinnacle of my career. Old feelings of inadequacy are hard to entirely give up.