Thank you for all the thoughts and comments as both C. and I had our ninth year in recovery. I told my story at two meetings, and each time I have a different slant. In one I start from the beginning and in the next, I am starting at where I am now.
I remember the first time that I shared my story at a meeting. I had written down a few things I wanted to share. I didn't know how to speak from the heart then. I thought that I needed notes to help me organize my thoughts. I don't do that anymore and haven't for several years. I simply share from the heart, not feeling anything but gratitude for the progress that I have made in coming to terms with who I am and how I was affected by alcoholism.
The main message that I have is that it is so good to be living life without a huge amount of fear and anxiety. I don't have active alcoholism in my life. It is a blessing. And I don't focus much on the past anymore, not the bad parts of it anyway. There is too much to do in the present right now. I want to hold onto that as much as I can.
Today, I rode for several miles around the farm and properties near by. It was a good morning, with a hint of fall in the air. I see the cloudless sulfur butterflies as they move through on their migration. Some of the trees are starting to change color as the days get shorter. The garden is still producing, but already we are putting in our fall and winter vegetables. My favorite time of year is coming.
It seems that every day is one to cherish. And as a blogger friend used to write, "Every day matters."