I've heard from my SO every day which has been very nice. I think that it helps to get away for a bit and think over things. I have found myself wishing that I could talk to her and put my arms around her. Even though things aren't necessarily at their peak right now, when there's a lot of history in a relationship, it means something regardless of the past. It means that we are friends and have been a touchstone for each other. It also means that there are a lot of feelings wrapped up in the relationship. Thankfully, those feelings are positive right now. I've always respected her and her opinions. They have been fairly given and in spite of the negativism that alcohol can bring into a relationship, she has never held back when I've asked her advice. It will be good to be able to actually talk again rather than just relying on email.
The other news from home came in the form of a distinctly distant email from a friend who I used to do a lot of things with. I had emailed him to tell him what was going on out here. We used to hang out a lot together but when I revealed that things weren't so great at home, we drifted apart. I think that the apartness was partially due to the fact that he had a hard time with the notion that we weren't the perfect couple. Also, there was a lot of judgement about my thoughts on continuing the marriage in its current state. Without going into a lot of useless detail, let's just say that the email stated that he was surprised to hear from me since he thought that I would want to completely disconnect from land. Anyway, the tone was distant and disinterested. It's okay because I know that things won't be the same between us. I guess that I've continued to include him in on activities but he hasn't with me. Maybe his expectations of me were greater than I could ever fulfill.
I've heard that we are going to make a port call in Key West at 1800 on Wednesday. I think that everyone is looking forward to that. Well, it's blowing 25-30 knots now and seas are expected to build to 8 feet by evening. We are rechecking all our lashings. Thinking of all of you and hoping that this message finds you grateful, peaceful, and filled with hope for the day.