Today was one of those days that had so many mixed emotions. I really had to work at my program in order to just get through the day. There have been several outbursts of anger on board toward the scientists and there have been some racial tensions. I don’t really understand a lot of details nor do I even want to know. Anyway, there seems to be a lot of unrest and it will be best when several of the crew get off the ship for good at the home port.
Amidst all of the venting and spewing, I felt overwhelmed so I did what I know works. I asked deck department to let me chip off rust with a needle gun. A needle gun is a neat power tool that has many long pieces of metal in a tube and these metal “probes” vibrate up and down and bust off the rust bubbles so that you can get down to the steel. I put in ear plugs and gunned away. The gun vibrates hard in your hand and is a great way to not only shut out everything around you due to the noise but is also a great way to just get absorbed in work and take out any and all frustrations. Maybe I'm chipping away at the rusted parts within myself to expose the steel underneath. Whatever it was, it worked because after a couple of hours of that, I felt happy and able to do the rest of the work for the day.
I finally quit work last night at around . It had been a 12 hour day and at the end of it, I was tired but content. Only one more day of Ops and then I can head back home. This has thankfully been a short cruise. I’m looking forward to getting to meetings and away from all the tension swirling around me.