Friday, June 15, 2007

Red sky at night

There's a mariner's saying that a red sky at night is a sailor's delight. Well, I saw that red sky last night and thought that it was a good sign that things were getting better in my head. I also read what all of you wrote and listened to what my sponsor told me.

It's true that I have been bringing up a lot of heavy stuff with the combination Step Four and Step Five that I'm doing. The feelings to run from yesterday have diminished I'm glad to say. I know that I have unfinished business but for today, I'm feeling happy and looking forward to the weekend.

I'm going to have my ups and downs. Thankfully, I don't get lost in the down times, and I don't slide into the abyss like I used to do. I've got some rudimentary tools that I'm using to get me over myself and I'll have more tools as I progress with my program.

I also had a happy thing happen yesterday. I picked up my Merchant Mariner's Document (Z card) from the Coast Guard. That card offers me some options for when I get out of research. I may never use it on a commercial vessel but just having it in my wallet is a reminder of lots of places to see and other work to be done on the water. Because I have volunteered on the state's new tall ship, there may be opportunities to either teach marine science to at risk children or be a member of the crew. Things to think about that make me smile.

Thanks for all of your support and comments. You are a great bunch of people who I have come to love.


  1. I'm glad you're doing better. You're not alone.

    Peace out!

  2. Look up William James and Zerissenheit.

  3. Have a great weekend. I am glad you are feeling alittle more at peace.

  4. It is a good thing to have options...

  5. And we have come to love you, too, Syd. Thanks for being a huge part of my recovery. I am happy to hear you are better today.
    Peace and Love,

  6. ...and a fellowship will spring up around us.........

  7. Hey you can captain my ship anytime. That is if I had a boat..

  8. Fitting in with "this" bunch may not be something you want to tell people about :)
    But you really do fit in Syd

  9. Red sky at night sailor's delight - pink sky in morning sailor's take that right? Anyway beautiful pic. beautiful YOU.

  10. Steps 4 & 5, very hard to stay rigorously honest and not run!! But its sooooo worth it. Keep on, it gets better. Great pictures this week too. Thanks

  11. Knowing you're doing better...makes me think there is hope for my son. Writing about it is great therapy..and you're helping us as well.
    Glad you got your Z looks good when you have more options...the world is a buffet!
    Have a great week!


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