Friday, June 15, 2007
Red sky at night
There's a mariner's saying that a red sky at night is a sailor's delight. Well, I saw that red sky last night and thought that it was a good sign that things were getting better in my head. I also read what all of you wrote and listened to what my sponsor told me.
It's true that I have been bringing up a lot of heavy stuff with the combination Step Four and Step Five that I'm doing. The feelings to run from yesterday have diminished I'm glad to say. I know that I have unfinished business but for today, I'm feeling happy and looking forward to the weekend.
I'm going to have my ups and downs. Thankfully, I don't get lost in the down times, and I don't slide into the abyss like I used to do. I've got some rudimentary tools that I'm using to get me over myself and I'll have more tools as I progress with my program.
I also had a happy thing happen yesterday. I picked up my Merchant Mariner's Document (Z card) from the Coast Guard. That card offers me some options for when I get out of research. I may never use it on a commercial vessel but just having it in my wallet is a reminder of lots of places to see and other work to be done on the water. Because I have volunteered on the state's new tall ship, there may be opportunities to either teach marine science to at risk children or be a member of the crew. Things to think about that make me smile.
Thanks for all of your support and comments. You are a great bunch of people who I have come to love.