I inventoried the things that were making me feel anxious. And basically a part of it is fear of uncertainty and the other part is my fear of confrontations. I know that these are uncertain times and that there is nothing that I can do about changing that. I have accepted uncertainty and the fact that I don't have a solution.
What I do have is some clear direction for this day. I know that I'm going to be rowing with the team tonight. I know that I have a work meeting this morning. I know that I have reports to work on. Those are the things that are certain about this day. I'll stick to those things that I know rather than try to understand or clarify processes that are unfathomable.
And with regard to confrontations, I decided that asking more questions and getting clarification in dealing with businesses and people is something that I can do. It doesn't mean that there is a confrontation, but that I have a clear understanding of situations in order to make an informed decision. I can disagree respectfully with someone and take care of myself without having an argument.
So today is a new day. I'm glad that I went to the meeting last night and that there are interesting things to do today. Anxiety is a state of mind that can be acknowledged, inventoried and let go.
"If you have a problem and you can do something about it, there is no need to get anxious about it because you can actively do something to solve it. On the other hand, if there is nothing you can do to solve it, getting anxious about it is useless -- it won't fix the problem. So either way you look at it, whether the problem is solvable or unsolvable, there is no sense in getting anxious or upset about it. Try thinking like that about one of your problems. Just sit for a minute and think, "Is there something I can do about this or not?" from Shantideva