I inventoried the things that were making me feel anxious. And basically a part of it is fear of uncertainty and the other part is my fear of confrontations. I know that these are uncertain times and that there is nothing that I can do about changing that. I have accepted uncertainty and the fact that I don't have a solution.
What I do have is some clear direction for this day. I know that I'm going to be rowing with the team tonight. I know that I have a work meeting this morning. I know that I have reports to work on. Those are the things that are certain about this day. I'll stick to those things that I know rather than try to understand or clarify processes that are unfathomable.
And with regard to confrontations, I decided that asking more questions and getting clarification in dealing with businesses and people is something that I can do. It doesn't mean that there is a confrontation, but that I have a clear understanding of situations in order to make an informed decision. I can disagree respectfully with someone and take care of myself without having an argument.
So today is a new day. I'm glad that I went to the meeting last night and that there are interesting things to do today. Anxiety is a state of mind that can be acknowledged, inventoried and let go.
"If you have a problem and you can do something about it, there is no need to get anxious about it because you can actively do something to solve it. On the other hand, if there is nothing you can do to solve it, getting anxious about it is useless -- it won't fix the problem. So either way you look at it, whether the problem is solvable or unsolvable, there is no sense in getting anxious or upset about it. Try thinking like that about one of your problems. Just sit for a minute and think, "Is there something I can do about this or not?" from Shantideva
You sound better today. Try to stay focused and remember it will get better.
ReplyDeleteI am happy you are back on track - sometimes those moments of having to re-asses ourselves are all it takes. Cat
ReplyDeleteIsn't it interesting how trusting ourselves can raise anxiety sometimes..but you've come a long ways and any confrontations etc you are faced will I am sure you will handle with grace.
ReplyDeleteSyd is back...Jack!
ReplyDeleteAs for me, anxiety can stop me in my tracks.
ReplyDeleteUnmasking my anxieties and inventorying those I can do something about and those I can't helps. Then taking action is important.
I appreciated your post.
Glad to hear you are progressing.
ReplyDeleteWords of wisdom. Just what I need today.
ReplyDeleteThis is awesome, Syd. I really needed to hear this today. I am sitting here like an anxious knot.
ReplyDeleteThanks for making me feel more relaxed tonight.
I didn't even know I felt anxiety until I stopped to feel what I was feeling. Now that I'm aware I can accept that is what I experience and then take the necessary actions. Awareness, they say, is 90% of the solution.
ReplyDeleteyou're back on track it seems. sounding much better.
ReplyDeleteworry about the things you can change
so simple, yet so hard to do at times...
Do you think this world is like the film Matrix, just all an illusion designed to make us grow spiritually?
ReplyDeleteWhen you think like that nothing worries you because you can say its not real