Monday, November 2, 2009

A tough couple of days

I've had a tough couple of days. I don't want to go into specifics at the moment. I've had to look really hard at some behavior that has left me questioning trust of another person. I'm having a bit of difficulty with that level of trust at the current time.

After a bit of soul searching and some moments of doubt and pain, I realized that I need to just trust God and realize that he has a plan. That revelation came at me again and again yesterday.

I'm going to close with a simple gratitude list. It seems like the best way to end the day.
  • I'm grateful for being able to push through some tough stuff and come out knowing that I will be okay.
  • I'm thankful for the ability to be optimistic. It is a trait that has enabled me to put one foot in front of another many times.
  • I know that whenever things seems difficult that I can turn to the God of my understanding who provides so much comfort. For that I am so grateful.
  • I'm grateful to be able to come home and have it be a place of comfort.
  • I'm thankful for a new sponsee who has decided that life doesn't have to be unmanageable.
  • I have been too preoccupied with some drama swirling around that I haven't had time to check up on each of you. I realize that reading what you write fills me with gratitude.
I'll be on a trip to Rhode Island for a couple of days. I hope to post while away at a work meeting. Take care. I'm going to do my best to stay in the day and trust God.


  1. How I wish that I was always in a near-perfect place of peace, serenity, and calm. But alas, I am still and always will be 'human'. I have come to accept that. I don't always like it, but I do accept.

    When the less than perfect moments come, I just snuggle up to my God and ask Him to hold me close till I have moved through it and learned whatever I have to learn.

    Enjoy your Rhode Island trip.

    Love, peace, and prayers,

  2. Syd,great post,thank you for sharing it.I hope that you trip to Rhode Island is a fruitful one.

  3. Thank God we have a program with spiritual tools to walk through this "life stuff". Thanks for the reminder that we always have choices. Have a safe trip!

  4. Sorry to hear about your tough days, but sounds like you are dealing with it well. Hope your trip to RI goes well.

  5. Seems like you've hit a white squall Syd. It also seems like you know what to do, so hang in there. Be gentle with yourself and the world. Take care

  6. Sending good wishes your way, Syd. I'm glad some things have been revealed to you and I hope that you continue to find your way -- you usually do. :)

  7. I am sorry you are going through a rough patch. Your trust in God and gratitude are an inspiration. Keep moving those feet in front of each other and I hope smooth waters come your way very soon. Have a safe trip.

  8. {{I SO get this post today,Syd}}

    Here's wishing you clarity and freedom to feel more at ease-to trust and let go - I loved your gratitude list..seriously..I am eating it for a bednight snack tonight it was so inspiring.

    (and I get that drama thing..ugh)

    Thanks for reminding me of some of those great qaulities and gifts gratitude instills in us in life.
    Especially when life is tough!

    Big hugs..
    T xo

  9. Syd,

    Your gratitude list could be mine today. I am right where you are. I read the term "wariness" Lou's post the other day and that is what I feel now. It can be tiring. Doing the next right thing for today..


  10. Trust issues are the toughest. But it will resolve itself. All we have to do is hold steady.

  11. When you've got God to rely on, you're standing on a Rock. It's just too darn bad that people aren't like God.


    nice vid ;)
    hope the clouds move on soon. this too shall pass.

    these are great too. just discovered them last week.
    yes well we are all betrayed in recovery as well as before recovery. betrayal does not feel pleasant

    'Be as gentle as doves, but as wise as serpents' as Jesus used to say..

    this is silly ol pop music, but i like the message :)

  13. It seems like I'm sitting next to you having a talk with this post.

    I'm having similar feelings, and trying to remember to take care of myself first.
    I'm asking myself how I can trust someone that has repeatedly been distrustful. At some point, we must protect ourselves. We can be loving, but we cannot be all forgiving all the time.

    Take as long as you need, and know we are thinking of you.

  14. I wondered where you were. When the going gets tough, talking to God and having faith is what works for me.
    Sometimes the personal growth is amazing.
    Thinking of you . jeNN

  15. If I may be so bold to add just one more thought ...

    This Too Shall Pass.

  16. God be with you in your travels. Glad you are being provided for with lots of other things that fill the hole that we find when we see life through our own human filter.

    Frustration seems to be in the air. I've been keenly feeling it myself.

  17. we all have these space, i realize too how much blogging and reaching out to this community effects me in such a positive way.
    have a safe trip

  18. THANK YOU SYD for sharing all of your places with us.

  19. I feel you always make the right choice, knowing we have them and acting on them, making them as you have told me many times, is healing..

    Enjoy your trip to Rhode Island. wishing you peace, serenity and of course, love and laughter

  20. Sorry that you have been having a tough time, Syd.

    I wish you peace and happiness.

    Love, SB.

  21. Hi Syd,

    Glad you're making that trip to RI; it'll be a great scenery-change for ya!

    As for the 'bad stuff' - - -
    s - - t happens! (Definition near F.I.N.E.)

    Whenever I have these human experiences (and I do get plenty of them) - - - I need to reflect; and gratefully acknowledge the challenge I have just been presented, and grow from it. I have heard in the fellowship this little euphemism: 'What does not kill you, makes you grow.'

    Good luck; this too, shall pass.

    Love and bon voyage,
    Anonymous #1

    P.S. LOved the reply from Vicariousrising!

  22. Tough days suck. Heck, even good days suck sometimes.

    It's when it all seems like it sucks that I need to work on my attitude as you have.

    I can relate.

    Blessings and aloha and best wishes for smoother sailing for you ahead...

  23. Thank you for sharing the tough days with us, Syd, as well as the calm and serene ones. (I like Findon's analogy of the "white squall"!) I hope this passes quickly and that you feel more at peace very soon. Wishing you a productive trip to RI, with some fun thrown in for balance!

  24. Syd, I'm sorry to hear your trust has been rattled. I went through this myself this past summer and did not handle it as graceful as I usually handle ups and downs. Perhaps due to the one who broke trust knowing I already had my plate full with struggles. I am one who has to vent to get past anything. Whether people chose to see the truth is not my concern. It was for me to vent. I hope you are able to move past this in a way you are comfortable with. Blessings to you syd. You'll be in my prayers. Hugs. Tammy

  25. Trust has been and still is my biggest stumbling block.
    Thank you for sharing.

  26. This post is so meaningful. We are all betrayed at various points, a huge lesson in Christianity.

    I am thinking of you and sending you big hugs and good vibes. Just listen to God and know that you are going to be fine!!!


  27. Have a safe trip Syd, and as always for sharing the solution and not the problem.

  28. What a lovely gratitude list.

    it's good for me to remember that my real trust and reliance is always on a my Higher Power, and not necessary on people. i've had to learn that lesson over and over

  29. I'm grateful for your blog. Ilearn so much from you.

  30. optimism and gratitude are two attitudes that can change a person and get them through some rough stuff... thanks for sharing, God Bless, travel safely!


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