"I'm late! I'm late. For a very important date!
No time to say hello! Good-bye!
I'm late! I'm late! I'm late!" The Mad Hatter, from Alice in Wonderland
I am feeling like I left myself behind today. Somewhere back in the country is a tired and somewhat aching body that needs to get going to do some work. It's Monday once again. Monday means that I have to get to work, work on more cleaning up of files, and organizing things so that I can pass papers and data on to those who will still be here. I also have two sponsee meetings today--one at noon and one before I leave for the Al-Anon book study and regular meeting tonight.
Yet, amazingly this is what happens week after week. It doesn't make me unhappy or even in a Mad Hatter rush. It just means that I have my day laid out. And so when I put my head down tonight and rest, I know that I have done what I could to be useful, to do my part, to get what I could done, and to not wonder what more I could fit into my schedule. I don't feel the call of the water today because I am sated from being in the salt air over the weekend. My muscles are tired from sailing, walking and rowing the little dinghy to shore.
Yet, I know that within me will be opportunities to be spontaneous. There will be discussions at work, with sponsees, at my meetings and tonight at home. I am grateful for the ability to do these things, to be the person I am. And hopefully the light that I reflect will come back to me with even brighter rays.