Thursday, September 29, 2011

What I want

I am starting to get over this cold, although my voice is still hoarse and my chest hurts from coughing.  I'm still planning on taking my sponsor to lunch tomorrow. A few of us are getting together to go to a restaurant overlooking the water. And after having lunch, I will probably take a nap for a couple of hours.

Hopefully, the nap will recharge me enough so that I can get groceries for the boat and then leave for the island anchorage.  It will be another simple weekend of rest, beach walking and reading.

I was thinking about how fortunate I am to be where I am at this point in life.  I cannot think of anything I really want materially.  But there are a few things that I want in the emotional realm:

  • I want there to be health and happiness for family and friends that I love.  
  • I want to get through the course that I am taking and have more unscheduled time.  
  • I hope that my wife and I can spend more time doing fun things together. We both tend to be busy with separate projects.  I would like for us to do more projects and have adventures together. 
  • I would like to keep moving forward in recovery and develop a trusting relationship with a local sponsor.  I am finding that looking for a sponsor is difficult because each person is different in how they approach sponsoring. 
  • I want to find the tribe of people with whom I feel comfortable. I know a few people who I enjoy being around.  I am hoping to find others that will be part of the tribe. 
  • I would like to not have Christmas be a big deal this year.  Just being together and having the annual recovery buffet here would be enough.  Brightening up someone else's day is all I want. 
  • I am fulfilled in many ways.  I want to concentrate on those positive things.  The glass is half full with me for the most part.  I know areas where I need improvement.  
That's about it for my wants. Pretty simple stuff.  A few of these I can actually do something about.  The rest will be thought about and hopefully realized at some point.  I'll leave that up to a power greater than me.  

“Here’s to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes… the ones who see things differently — they’re not fond of rules… You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can’t do is ignore them because they change things… they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do.” ~Steve Jobs

14 comments:

  1. My cold (almost over) is nearing the end of its second week--UGH!

    Syd, your wish list is to be envied by most. And your coolness in summation--how you plan and hope--is a tribute in progress for Alanon. God will put you in the right place.

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  2. That Steve Jobs quote blows me away. You're definitely in my tribe Syd!

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  3. Christmas has become ridiculous. It's only Sept, and I don't want to go into another store till next year. Helping others, or being with my closest loved ones and no gifts, is my idea of a perfect Christmas.

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  4. I like your list, that quote and my iPad!

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  5. Beautiful quote. Beautiful goals.

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  6. Wish I could drop in on your Christmas buffet!

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  7. I understand your wish for finding a sponsor. I think it's particularly tough in Alanon. Meetings can be small and people come into it from different angles: ACOA, actively drinking spouse, actively drinking child, spouse in recovery, child in recovery, double winners etc, etc. Everyone's focus and story is different. Finding the right sponsor is a challenge

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  8. Insanity...it is a glorious thing if channeled in the way best suited to shake the "sane"

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  9. hope you continue to feel better...nice want list...T andI madea conscious decision to do more together about 6 months ago...

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  10. Get well! and have a GOOD weekend.

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  11. I'm with you on the Christmas thing. I would give anything for a low key Christmas. But apparently that's unheard of around these parts. ::sigh::

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  12. Oh I love your wish list - I'm with you on the Christmas thing. I told Alex yesterday (saying the word 'told' is putting it mildly) I was dreading the entire holiday season. I hate all the holidays, all of them. ALL OF THEM. Did I say ALL OF THEM? Yes I sound like a shrew.

    It's too...weird for me now.

    The Steve Jobs quote blows me away too.

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  13. Sending good wishes all goes well with your new sponsor. Taking a moment to be grateful and hopeful is a wonderful thing.

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