Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Gone fishing

We are going fishing today.  Both of us are struggling a bit because the parents caregivers, Karin and Elias, gave their notice last evening.  They are leaving for London in two weeks to work at an estate.

Neither of us has slept well.  I was too anxious to write last night.  I needed to process the information.  I realize that there is a solution.  We are working on that now.

I am looking on the bright side.  But last evening, it was hard to wrap my head around the whole idea of their leaving so soon after they arrived.  But this is what life is about--people come and go.  And now we have to take action to find another couple who are willing to be caregivers.

I do what I generally do.  I got on the internet, wrote up a job description and put it out there.  I could feel the "fix it" rush happening.  I realize that my first reactions of dismay, sadness, and anxiety were pushed away when I did "something".  This is so typical of an adult child of an alcoholic.  By doing "something", I don't have to sit with the bad feelings.  That is part of it.  The other part is that with only two weeks notice, I did need to get a job description out there.

So now, we are going fishing.  It is a picture perfect day.  We both want to be on the water.  After one action, there has got to be an equal and opposite reaction.  Fishing seems to fit that bill completely.

Somehow, I know that all will be okay.  Casting out lines and seeing what rises to the bait seems to be the metaphorical thought of the day.

14 comments:

  1. That is not good news :-(

    I hope the fishing expedition calms your nerves.

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  2. I'm sorry you are losing such good caregivers. Change is stressful, but we must always have hope. I'm glad you are going fishing. I know you read my post about fishing. I had a little update. I finally got out there and caught a fish. It felt WONDERFUL. Enjoy the day. :)

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  3. Awareness, acceptance, action. Thanks for sharing.

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  4. enjoy fishing man...and glad you got the job description out now let it work...and your HP provide...

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  5. It will be okay, Syd. I am just sorry for your anxiety. Glad you are getting away for a little.

    You and C. are in my thoughts.

    Love,

    SB

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  6. Fishing allows me sit with myself. I have a pole downstairs that needs to get into the water but it's been years. I might go on a ocean foraging adventure that a local is putting on for mussels and eels.

    It was hard for me as a kid fishing and having to be with my father. His drinking got worse as the day wore on. Today I have compassion for his battle with alcoholism.

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  7. Yes, fish. Be calm. I'm thinking of you.

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  8. When I put my trust in my Higher Power, wonderful things happen. So they will for you and yours.

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  9. Enjoy your fishing excursion ... and won't it be interesting to see what ensues? You are wise to do the groundwork and then to let it have a chance to come to fruition.

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  10. Sorry to hear about this Syd, I hope you find reliable and committed care-givers. And I hope the fishing trip is a good break --

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  11. I'm sorry that the couple moved on so quickly :(

    But .... I'm sure there is a solution and that the ole HP already has it in hand.

    Have a good day fishing!

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  12. One door closes, another one opens. Enjoy your day fishing. Make room for the miracle. :)

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  13. You put the need out there in the universe and know that a good situation is on its way.

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