Some days, like today, I stare at the computer screen, and I swear that nothing is in my head. It feels as if there is a great void there when it comes to writing anything.
I could tell you about meeting up yesterday for lunch with a fellow I sponsor. He went through the 12 steps, decided that 12 step programs weren't for him, but tells me that I changed his life. He is in graduate school studying to be a counselor. I don't know whether I changed anything, but I spent a lot of time with him going through the steps. I think that the steps changed him.
I could tell you that one of the dogs who is 12 is not feeling well. I worry about the old ones. They have been so faithful. I have lost too many of them in the last year or so.
I could tell you that I went to my home group last night. It was as if I was surrounded by comfort. Our group is small, but we all care about each other. A newcomer, who has alcoholic parents, is opening up more and more to share her pain and is looking for a solution. She said that she got the courage to share because she heard us talk about our life with alcoholism--with smiles and laughter.
I could tell you that I am meeting another man I sponsor today. He is doing the fourth step which is like a marathon in Al-Anon. He is willing, and I am willing. That helps us both.
I could tell you that my wife and I will celebrate our wedding anniversary on Saturday. This year, we are going fishing together. No gifts other than love. There is much history between us, and it is rich and full and complex. But love seems to be the common denominator of our years.
I could tell you that I am grateful for today. I know that it will have its challenges just as every day of life does. But if I got up and knew that every day was going to be the same, I think that life would lose its savor. I much prefer a little spice rather than flat and bland.
There, I've written something. My brain just needed a jump start.
When you love someone, the best thing you can offer is your presence. How can you love if you are not there? ~ Thich Nhat Hanh