Thursday, December 29, 2011

Vegetative state

I have been amazingly worthless this week.  I am wondering about my lack of energy.  I'm not depressed but wanting to cocoon, stay home, read and take naps.  So I have done just that.  I have not been to the boat, have not done much of anything outside, and have only driven off the property a couple of times.

I think that all is a bit "off" because my wife is spending the nights with her parents. When she gets home in the morning, we have coffee, read the paper,  and catch up on how things were the night before.  I really don't want to go anywhere once she is home, and that feels okay.

I have a tendency to be solitary so cocooning at home isn't that unusual.  When I was working, the days between Christmas and New Year's Day were when I rested and did as little as possible.  I knew that once the Christmas holiday was over, there would be few long stretches of time when I would be able to vegetate.  In the last few years, my cocooning has been on the boat.  I much prefer being out on the water and away from the marina, and right now that isn't possible.

In a few days, I will be taking a road trip to Florida.  The thought of the long drive isn't appealing.  Maybe I am preparing subconsciously for the drive and being away by resting and staying at home.  I will be there for a few days and then head back home.  I'm trying to psych myself up for the trip.  I'm not being very successful at that for the moment.

I did manage to go see the movie "War Horse".  It was a throwback to the type of feel good movies that Hollywood used to make.  I like a good horse or dog story.  And somehow I think that this was as much about how terrible war is as it was about fate and how it may work in our favor.

Today, I am going to debone the turkey and help C. make a turkey pot pie.  She scoffs at turkey leftovers, but I think that this might actually be a good tasty dish.  Okay, this paragon of domesticity is going to get to work.  And then it will be time for a nap.....


20 comments:

  1. Your title scared me! I thought, "Oh no, one of the dogs, or one of the parents!" But noooooo, its just you! lol It sounds like a very restful time, your spirit is refilling itself. You are wise to give yourself the time you are needing and not forcing action. Bless you Syd. Drive safe to FL.

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  2. Cocooning sounds wonderful. Sometimes going inside yourself wrapped up in doing nothing is exactly what a person needs.

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  3. I can relate, sometimes I just need that period of time when I'm in a "vegatative" state. Sort of helps me recharge in a way...

    Safe travels!

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  4. Cocooning. That is the second time I've heard that term...both this week...it's a good term. It sounds like you have a few healthy, reasonable reasons to be doing so. It is nice to take a momentary pause to gather ourselves from time to time, I think it's natural. I hope you have a good time in Florida, even if the drive isn't so enjoyable.

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  5. It's nice to sometimes just relax. I can get consumed with busyness which was part of not being present.

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  6. I read you tell us of all the things you were not doing, but I was thinking of all the things you are doing: taking care of yourself, opening your mind by reading, developing intimacy with your wife, loving your home. There is a time and a season for everything. Oh yeah, and I understand your feelings about taking a trip. My resistance started a day before my six hour drive and lasted until after I had been on the road a half hour. The drive both ways was actually better than I anticipated and seemed quicker than I had thought it would be.

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  7. I don't get out much at all.my main outing are via the computer.I have not driven a car in over 5 years so I just sit at hope play my computer games and visit blogs and watch my fav TV show.

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  8. Thanks Syd, your posts help me so much. I'm still learning how to listen to myself, and that it is ok to do so.

    I have this week off,.and.I also want to do nothing. I have taken.care of.business, and more than that no. I don't want to rush around, and I've been on myself a bit about it. This post helped me to see that I am just tired and need rejuvenating. Come January I'll be off and running so why not take the.downtime.when I.have it? Thanks for the reminder to be at peace with where I am at! I am going to cocoon also. And you know what? After a cocoon there is always a butterfly!

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  9. turkey pot pie sounds nice...enjoy the trip to FL for what it is...about to take a 8.5 hour drive myself...travel light...

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  10. Great picture of your beautiful dog. I think we need to give ourselves permission to to nothing now and then, escape that Protestant work ethic, and do what a program friend calls, "just hanging out with my Higher Power."

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  11. I don't like driving hours in the car. If I had my way, I would fly everywhere!
    I have a 3 day week end coming up, and I will follow your lead and be lazy and take naps. I won't make a turkey pie however...maybe order a pizza pie.

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  12. I'm off work between Christmas and New Years, too. This year I'm trying to reclaim my guest room and my son's room from the chaos of reconstruction. I know the feeling of wanting to suck up the relaxation because you know there will be precious little of it to come. Suck up the rest, Syd. Happy New Year.

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  13. Hi Syd! Happy collective holidays! Your blog brought back a memory - one that I still always feel: As soon as Christmas Day has passed, I want spring to begin! That's all there is to it. You presented a good description of cocooning - as in the bear hibernation time - I feel that same relaxed sensation after a holiday - that all is well, and it's time to rest with no worries.

    I'm glad all is well with you now. It's been a very busy year for you - parents (in-law) - critters - - - etc etc.

    Go rest.

    Hugs, Anonymous #1

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  14. Thanks for stopping by my blog. I appreciate your comments.

    Your words have dreamy quality to them and is comforting to me to read them.

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  15. Is your doggy a Whippet? I love them! If we lived on several acres I would have gotten one! We live on just a little over one acre...it didn't seem fair to keep a beautiful dog like that and not be able to take it off leash for long runs.

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  16. :) Yup nesting is a good feeling, specially with a bit of warm fur.

    We had ham leftovers (have...have) for a week, I think sometimes I overestimate my love of things when I realize how much leftover there is when two people buy a ham. So we share with friends the soup we made and think creatively about how to make the rest new.

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  17. It sounds to me like Syd needs a recharge, and he's getting it one day at a time. It's good to be able to identify where one is through honest, accurate self-appraisal. You know you're ok, and this too shall pass, enjoy it while it lasts!

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  18. For everything, there is a season...

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  19. Looks like your handsome pal is getting in some "veggie" time too.
    I have always been a loner and, now that I'm in recovery, I have to really be careful not to isolate for too long ...but a day or two being vegetative can give you a well needed rest too so enjoy!
    and Happy New Year to you and C.

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  20. aaah, doing nothing, just as the season dictates... have a safe trip, and in the meantime, enjoy your pot pie. and a very happy new year to you, c and the pups!

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