Yesterday, the meeting topic was about the spiritual experiences that we have. I listened to all the shares but kept silent. I know that I have had numerous spiritual experiences. Sometimes the words just don't seem adequate to describe the intensity of those I have had. I've written about one here and another here on this blog. These events were clearly ones that showed me there was a connection in spirit with my parents as they were dying. I believe these were spiritual experiences.
The reading of amends to my parents during my ninth step was another spiritual experience. We were in a cemetery at the old church where my home group meeting is held. It's a peaceful place with many old live oak trees. The letters that I read were those that I had written to my parents and a couple of other relatives. After reading, I put each letter in a pot and my sponsor set fire to each one. We watched the smoke rise up and waft about on the wind. As I read the letters to my parents, the wind shifted and the smoke surrounded me. It was as if they were letting me know all was okay.
I have described these experiences in meetings before. They affect me in a profound way. Yet, every day there are other "Ah-ha" moments of enlightenment. The people that I meet, the conversations that I have with those I sponsor, sharing the steps, living with alcoholism, having the sailboat--these are all experiences that I think were meant to be. Each experience opens me up to be more receptive and more alive. I am so much more aware and appreciative of life. Every day is an opportunity to be clearer in what's important and what can be let go.