Low down side

I feel as if I am behind in everything and have little enthusiasm to get much done. I suppose this is my low down side coming out.

I am going through most normal activities this week, but realize that I am dead tired from the trip south.  It must be catching up with me now.  I haven't had much down time since I got back, so I took today as an opportunity to have a nap in the afternoon.  I don't feel much better, but at least I know that I was home and got some rest.

I have been to some incredible meetings over the last few days.  Things that I heard were a reminder of how lives that have been all but ruined can be turned around.  I wonder then why I am feeling this emptiness right now.  One of the things that I do know is that tonight I will do those things that make me feel better: have a good dinner, read, meditate, and get more sleep.  Tomorrow is a chance to start afresh.

My low down side doesn't come out much.  And it passes just as quickly as it comes.  It is nothing to fear, I know.  And I think about this:

I saw grief drinking a cup of sorrow and called out, 'It tastes sweet, does it not?' 'You've caught me,' grief answered, 'and you've ruined my business. How can I sell sorrow, when you know it's a blessing? ~Rumi

This being human is a guest house

Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,

some momentary awareness comes

as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!

Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,

who violently sweep your house

empty of its furniture,

still treat each guest honorably.

He may be clearing you out for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice,

meet them at the door laughing,

and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,

because each has been sent

as a guide from beyond.

~ Rumi