Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Low down side

I feel as if I am behind in everything and have little enthusiasm to get much done. I suppose this is my low down side coming out.

I am going through most normal activities this week, but realize that I am dead tired from the trip south.  It must be catching up with me now.  I haven't had much down time since I got back, so I took today as an opportunity to have a nap in the afternoon.  I don't feel much better, but at least I know that I was home and got some rest.

I have been to some incredible meetings over the last few days.  Things that I heard were a reminder of how lives that have been all but ruined can be turned around.  I wonder then why I am feeling this emptiness right now.  One of the things that I do know is that tonight I will do those things that make me feel better: have a good dinner, read, meditate, and get more sleep.  Tomorrow is a chance to start afresh.

My low down side doesn't come out much.  And it passes just as quickly as it comes.  It is nothing to fear, I know.  And I think about this:

I saw grief drinking a cup of sorrow and called out, 'It tastes sweet, does it not?' 'You've caught me,' grief answered, 'and you've ruined my business. How can I sell sorrow, when you know it's a blessing? ~Rumi

This being human is a guest house
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
~ Rumi


13 comments:

  1. I would imagine there would be a bit of a low grade depression after such an exhilarating trip. I feel that way after reading a really good book or going to a concert. I get so caught up in the adrenaline of emotion that the after effects are a bit of a downer.

    I think you'll stabilize soon :-)

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  2. I am reminded that every day is not a Doris Day.

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  3. hey man...i hope it passes for you...and good job taking care of yourself...you have been busy too so...

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  4. Tiredness and the letdown that comes when a wonderful experience has ended can sure make for melancholy. Sounds like you know your way around - and through - it.

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  5. I kept hearing this at N/A last night.
    "Everything is exactly as it's meant to be"

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  6. I don't function well at all when I'm tired. Have a nice catch up day today!

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  7. Thank goodness those low days don't last, Syd. It'd be awful if they did.

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  8. I hope you allow yourself to acknowledge that you need some rest! Sleep is good!

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  9. Love rumi! You are so right... You have to walk through all feelings to get to the other side. Bless your sweet heart syd for catching up on my blog and reading and commenting on all those posts. I always love reading your perspective and feel honored that you share your time and comments with me. You are a blessing to many. Rest, do the things you love and refill your spirit today. I will try to do the same.

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  10. Hope your rest is sweet and quiet. Thank you for the beautiful poem toady.

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  11. Syd I feel you on the low side of thought but if you were to ask me (which you are probably best not too) I would say you didn't get enough of a nap in.

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  12. Again- I needed exactly those words.
    Bless you, Syd. I mean it.

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  13. this too shall pass, they say and I am sure it has!

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